True. True. You meet that one person that would make your day more colorful but turn into gray, your world brighter but also darker all at the same time. Not all relationship is about happy and share everything and go crazy together. Not all relationship would end like in a love story we read or watch *It's just fantasy anyway, although sometimes based on the writer's story*. Oh well, mine's? Yes, like most couple we........had an itsy bitsy tiny little problem but we manage to find the way out, by simply talk about it with cold head.

Oh well, what a wonderful life I had right now :)

"She went down in an airplane, fried getting suntanned, fell in a cement mixer full of quicksand, met a shark underwater, fell and no one caught her, caught in a mudslide, eaten by a lion, got run over by a crappy purple Sicon, dried up in the desert, drowned in a hot tub, danced to death at an east side night club..........."

I feel sorry for her. Tragic how her boyfriend fake her death. If I imagine those things happen to you, would it make me a bad bad baaaaad person? Guess not, heheh. It's not that I mean it, just a silly imagination though.

Anyway, lately I kinda felt like left hanging by someone. Don't you just hate being left hanging by the person you really really like? Its like you want to push'em to a cliff or simply punch them right in their face but  at the same time you want to be with them like f.o.r.e.v.e.r or 'til death do us apart. Depressing. Believe me, I know.

Well, this guy (you can say) he's not that "sensitive" type of guy. Not that he's easily cry or mad, I mean he doesn't really care about his surrounding. He might consider me as his another friend but I feel different when we talk or when I'm nea him. So I really don't know whether I should felt excited, blushed, act natural, stay calm and pretend its just a wind passing by or go straight to cloud 9 when he said something nice and sweet to me. He does that to most of his girl-friends because that's how he joke around with us.

Once, I was about to tell him the truth. The truth about how I feel for him but I can't. Its just, I don't want to ruin this "perfect" friendship. We probably more happier just being friends rather than being "love birds". But I keep asking myself lately..........

Sister? Friend? Best friend? Special friend? Another girl to play around? Another stranger who accidentally you met?

So, what I want to say right now (and hope you read it) are.........

1. Thank you for being such a good friend 'til now

2. Thank you for left me hanging this whole time (it sucks and btw I'm not a piece of cloth)

3. Thank you for being there when I need the most (as a friend)

4. Thank you for being a good 'brother' (which I actually already had but not going to complain about having another one)

5. Just date another girl will you? Like ASAP!!!!! or at least show me some signs that you like another girl, so I won't feel like this anymore, k?

Last but not least:

FRIENDZONE SUCKS. Who want to stuck in that zone forever? I don't. And just so you know:

Left-hanging-girl out.

Peace.

Glad BLG's back again. Have you seen the video? And, since when Martin become so cool....um handsome....um hot? Bad boy type kinda guy

Anyway.....today, it's been quite unproductive day for me. Why? Its because I only stay on my bed watching TV program and chatting with all my fellas. Very much unproductive actually. I want to go out like hang out with my friends or with my family but somehow I'm glued to bed, like with super glue. And to be honest right now I'm feeling a little dizzy. On top of that, my bed time is ruin. Stay up late, wake up late. Need to fix that ASAP, otherwise I'll be late for school as well. Talking about school, how many homeworks have you done so far? Mine? Let's just say about...................10%. 12 actually, heheh. I need to start finishing it soon cause not just homeworks, I also need to study for my upcoming daily exam. Thank you teachers, thank you very much!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bye for now, gotta start working on some homeworks. Or maybe I'm going to surf the net little bit longer. Ohya, I just found this on youtube:

Thought I missed it, but luckily it will be in theaters around 20something on August 2012 (played in America, not know for sure when will it play in Indonesia. Not long after that I hope). WOHOOOOOO,  maybe it's little bit kind of The Transporter. Don't know for sure, but what I know is Joseph Gordon-Levitt in that movie. Heheh

Touching song from Cher Lloyd and Carolina Liar. I don't know why but everytime I listen to this song, keep on bring me back to one of folk tales "Cinderella". w.e.i.r.d.............

Anyway, right now I want to write about "Bullies". Yeah, they're so called "Emotional terrorists" just like what Air Marshal (Dwayne Johnson) told to Marni Olsen (Kristen Bell) in "You Again"

"Let me tell you about bullies, they're just like terrorists. Only, they're emotional terrorists"

Bullies always terrorize us in school. It's like they own that school. And it's like they're the Queen or King or President of the school and we're only their slave. They not supposed to do that. We are all equal, sometimes they didn't even realize that its their parents money or stuff they're bragging. You can brag as long as you want infront of me if ONLY its your own money. You work hard to earn them, not only asking your mommy and daddy and cry all day and all night and threaten them if they didn't give it to you. Such a brat.

Its not that I've been bullied in school, but I've heard and seen my friends been bullied. Not physically maybe, but more of their mental. Their emotions. You bullies may not realize it, but most people you've been bullied were hurt inside. They cried all night and they also (maybe) hate them self because they can't be as "perfect" as you are. Don't you realize what you've done? You said you're the nicest person on the planet. Well are you sure? you only nice to people who you think as equal as you. We are all equal. You're blind if you can't see it then

*ps: it has nothing to do with the song I guess*

It's been a while since their last cover, here is the new cover from ma boys:

Rileyyyyy :)
Oh and hey!!! Toby is on the video too. When will they ask Tank to be on one of their cover music vids? I wonder......

• APRIL BABY

Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confidant. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and traveling. Systematic. Hot but has brains. If you repost this in 5 mins, a cutie that’s caught your eye will introduce themselves and you will realize that you are very much alike in the next 2 days.

Hahah :)

from: NewYorkToParis

Lately, I like to watch a show called "Mobbed". It's an American reality TV show and the premise of the show is to use a flash mob to create an once in a life-time event. It has many episodes but my favorite one *for now* is the "I Love You and We've Never Met". You have to watch it yourself because it's such a sweet episode.

The concept of it was take from "Big Fish" movie where all of the other mob freeze for a moment and then Steve tell his feelings to his long-distance best friend of five years (Dana) whom he's never met to take their relationship to the next level. I've never seen something like this before. Whoaaah if I were Dana, I would say "yes" right when I saw him walking towards me. I mean, Who could resist such an adorable guy? :')

Lyric from "I Wish - Matt Palmer". Such a nice song, highly recommended for those of you who just broke up but still have feelings for him/her or secretly in love with someone at this point. Heheh, feel like I should send this to someone out there. Maybe later. Tomorrow. Next week. Next month. Next year. Maybe never :|

Anyway....suddenly I want to cheer up all of my friends out there. Because lately I saw them tweeting and they kind of frustrating with their life. Especially love-life. What do I know about "love"? I'm just a 16 years old girl and had *lets just say* zero experience in love. But, as a good friend, it's not a bad thing to cheer your friends up, right?

Okay, For those you who is in a "long distance relationship" right now, remember "Trust is #1". You have to trust your partner and you have to trust yourself too. If you can still reach him or her with transportation like car, train, plane, ship then it's not that far. You can also call, text or skype each other. It's okay to get jealous or afraid he or she might get attached to somebody. It's a test that you have to face it. Just like a test in school.

For those of you who just breaking up with your boy or girlfriend, well maybe he or she is not the one. Remember "If they meant to be with you, they'll come back eventually" but if they don't, open your heart for others. Move on sister and brother. Plenty of fish in the sea *eventhough plenty of fisherman too ._.*

And, for those of you who still stuck in this "friend zone" thingy, then probably you two meant to be just friends. Well who knows, in the end maybe you two end up being lover. Just like in most of movies, there is this boy and girl who knew each other since they were just a little kid but end up being boy and girlfriend, just wish your life would be like them. Or in another scenario, you found another boy and he found another girl. And you both lived happily ever after with each other partners.

All I know is God already wrote a story for each and all of us. And every story has it's own happy ending :)

OMG, I feel like a psychiatrist. Even my own love-life isn't as happy as love story in movies. Ugh, don't you wish for once your life be as happy as life in a movie you watched?

Been doing solo-performance in..............my room since 2 hours ago. Remember post about duo group "Karmin"? Yeah, I was like hypnotized when listening to their songs and my finger just keep on clicking to their next Lyric Video and then sing as if I'm on stage.

Why sing alone when all of you could join me

Hello

I Told You So

Walking On The Moon

I'm Just Sayin'

Too Many Fish

and my second favorite after Brokenhearted

Coming Up Strong

To be honest, it's really super duper hard with the "Rap" thingy. Strugle with it.

But, btw I hope they make the real music video from all of their song. Can't wait

Cool. Very cool. Uber cool. Super duper cool. Spiffy.

Me want these cameras so badddddd.

Instagram Socialmatic Camera

based on ADR Studio features included:

-16 GB mass storage;

- Wifi and Bluetooth;
- 4:3 touchscreen;
- 2 main lens, first for main capture, second for 3D filters, webcam applications and QR Code capturing;
- Optical zoom;
- Led Flash;
- Internal printer to make your Instagram photos real;
- Paper cartridge with Instagram Paper Sheets;
- Dedicated 4 colors ink tanks;
- InstaOs 1.0, which put together Facebook and Instagram App feature

So you can share you photo(s) directly on Facebook trough the powerful InstaOs. You can also print it directly on Instagram Paper Sheets, thanks to the internal printer.

The overview Video

Polaroid Z2300 Instant Digital Camera (Hands-On)

If you know or remember the previous one Z340:

which is launched last year, z2300 is the new and more slimer polaroid. And according to theverge.com ,the price is a lot more reasonable than z340. 

Read it for yourself then. Click here

So, just an FYI my birthday is on 23rd April. I'm patient enough to wait, heheh :)

Yesterday, I found something that I think is really sweet. If only this would happen not only in a movie, but also in real life. Some of you may had already feel or do something like this, but not for me. No one ever say something like this to me before *poor me :(*

Katy Perry's "Wide Awake" keep on playing in my head and today I just saw the music video of it. Amazing but kind of cofuse. Maybe I should watch it over and over again to make it crystal clear

*ps: The little girl is soooo cute and.....why strawberry? Why not apple? Probably apple is so Cinderella huh?*

When I read the lyric, it seems more like a love letter or a confession letter from a boy to a girl. So sweet :')

Lately, I ask this question to myself and some of my pals:

"Have you ever think of telling your crush the truth about your feelings because you can't wait any longer and you're too afraid he/she might be someone else boy/girlfriend but you're too chicken shiz to do it because there are lot of things running on your mind about what might happen like "will he/she say yes?" "what if he/she says no?" "what if this distance between us keep on getting longer and longer after I tell him/her the truth?" "what if he/she secretly had a crush on my bestfriend?" "what if he/she actually already had a girl/boyfriend?"

Yes, there are a lot of "what if...". And yes, I keep on asking those question to myself and didn't do a thing to  find the answer. Like I said before, TOO CHICKEN shizzzz

Karmin

A very nice song from Karmin that I've been listen to for the past few days. Such a good song and I keep on repeat it over and over again. Whoaaaaa, and a very good music video too

*ps: Amy sure got cute hair there, heheh*


Maybe the reason why I love this song is because I feel like this song had connection with me. Boooo, actually this song got connection to any other girls on this planet

Cheerio :)

Guess it's true, you're cool with just being friends. Not more than that. I know nowadays, girl can make the first move too, but I'm too scared. Scared to know the truth, scared to know your answer, scared to know that maybe you only say "yes" just because you don't want to see me crying or what so ever. But the most important thing is, I'm scared that in the end, I end up getting hurt and I'm the one who end our relationship. I don't want to be the one who start as well as end it up. I want it to be long lasting like happily ever after. But some says "forever ever after doesn't exist". Maybe, they said that because they haven't found it yet. We're on the sampe page then :)

Why can't I skip it right to end of the book. See who's the one that'll spend the rest of his life with me, sitting on the porch, drinking tea, eating home made cookies, laughing as we remember what we used to like when we're younger and playing with our grandchildren.


*it sounds like I'm desperate but just an FYI, I'm not*

Lately, listening to Maroon 5 song "Payphone".  didn't really match with my feelings right now but who cares? this song is so damn good and I've been repeat it over and over and over again.

Well, since this is my new post after hibernating for 2 weeks or so I think I'm gonna write few things about what happened, what I watched. Feel free to move on to other blog or other website cause this will make you feel bored. As bored as in physics class or any other classes.

What Happened
- Tons of homeworks, daily test, group projects. Basicly school stuff made me busy all day all night long,  and it's a little bit distraction from thinking and wanting to talk to you. THANK YOU, GOD.
- Going back to "missing" and "extremely jealous at someone". *skip this one*
- Sukhoi airplane crashed. May all the passenger are in heaven now, and all police or CSI find what's the cause of this terrible accident.
- To be honest, I don't remember what else happened. Guess I have a short-term memory........

What I Watched
- Yes, I watched The voice *so sad knowing that pip is out the competition, when did this happened? how can I miss it??*
- BYE's livestream *but its not live, ladies and gentleman*. So happy to see Toby and Tank are in it. btw, Tank should talk bark more often

- JB's "Boyfriend" Music video. He's getting hotter and hotter everyday, or every second perhaps

- Those show on Starworld, Fox, Style Network and E!

- Neverland on Fox movies. Charlie Rowe is ao cute with his british accent. Guess what, He was born on the same day and year with me. They say, most of the adorable couple were the one born on the same day hahah, just kidding.

- Cher Lloyd "Want U Back" US version. Like the other version though

Guess this post is long and unimportant enough to make all of you feel sleepy. Bye then.
But before I end it......

probably, you feel like you treat me like I'm ordinary but I never feel that way. so what should I do, dear oscar wilde? I truly couldn't read his mind. And he *maybe* never show his feelings, even with his friends.

Meeepmeeeep. That's all

BYE

Loogie

20 and still a cutie. Yes, who doesn't know Logan Lerman? well maybe most of you knew him from a movie "Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief". He turns 20 last January. God, I thought he's 17 or 18. I don't care, he's still cute!!!!!!!!!

If you noticed my Tumblr and Pinterest, I reblogged and pinned some of his pictures.

Lucky me if I ever get to meet and greet and take pictures with him.

Shop Til Drop

Actually, not only shoes but also clothes, bags and other accessories. One of women's friends are stores. Some woman when they walk into a store, their eyes go from "-_-" to "o_o". And to be honest, I'm kind of one of them. But the problem is, my money isn't enough to pay everything, so i still need money from mommy and daddy. FYI, when comes to money and shopping, they need to think 100000 times to buy something for me. They need to think whether it's expensive/not, useful/not and other things. In the end, I end up saying "fine, I don't need it. No I don't *do I? NO!!!!*. Let's go"

Yes I need shoes this much:

also bags, like these babies:

      

and any other fashion items.
Why can't we just simply click items we want from internet and in a blink of an eye, those items will appear in our room and we can have it without paying it. When we got bored, we return it eventhough the items were broken. What a great life.

so..........
Dear owners of Zara, Topshop, Forever 21, Chanel, M&S, Urban Outfitters, Dorothy Perkins and other uber nice and non-affordable by my pocket stores around the world

                     Hey, I never met you. And this is crazy, but my birthday is in 10 days. so present, maybe?

Sincerely,

Me

Greetings. It's April 10, 2012. Little bit late but..................HELLO APRIL.
Hope this month will bring more joy to our life. No more fighting, no more crying, just happines all the way.

I'm so happy I could write here again. Seems like its been years since the last time I wrote here *please, last time is on March*. Actually I'm happy now because I've finished my homeworks *well some of it* and the best part is...........me and my friends are doing okay right now. The ice didn't break 100% but slowly melting. As soon as possible, it will turn into water and everything's going to be exactly the way it was before.

lastly,

Hope our life, our friendship, everything around us will be like flowers that blooming in spring. So colorful, so beautiful, makes your heart skip a beat, takes your breathe away, blow your mind.

17.03.2012

The main event happened days ago but today, I saw these pictures again. Pictures that me and my Junior High friends took when we celebrate Tiva's birthday party. It's really a surprise party arranged by Yori and Tiva's parents and aunt. If Yori didn't invited us, we probably wouldn't meet each other. *except for Tata, 'cause we meet like every saturday*.

We are totally "un-prepared" because we just talked about it through Blackberry Messenger group.

I want to tell you the whole thing, but looks like forever to read it and showing it by pictures seems harmless and easier.

Start from our meeting point

Then Suprise her. Lighted up the candle from stove *none of us brought lighter*. 

And made her blow the candle twice because of technical problem

Pranked her. See her still holding the cake? it's 100% our fault. we should've taken 

the cake before she got pranked. and FYI, we didn't eat it eventually

Played outside and Goofed around

Got a little scared when Tiva's dog came to us. Well very much frightened, 

some of us even leave their phone on the ground and save themself

Went to the mall and sat there until stores closed and people wrapped everything up.Nice way to tell us to go home or go somewhere else

1 thing that I would never forget is...........we need about 10 minutes just to arrange place to sit on our way to mall, Kind of embarrasing actually. But when you do it with your friends, it become less embarrasing. Thanks again to all of you.

Got Other Questions?

Seriously, what happen with people these days? when they want to get to know each other, one of them text to another and ask the same questions everyday "hi, what are you doing?" "have you your breakfast/lunch/dinner?" "what are you going to do today?" "what did you do yesterday?" "already do your homeworks?" and then, about 5-10 minutes later he/she repeat the first question "so now, what are you doing?".

Ugh, can you ask another thing? OR if that person looks like he/she didn't want to chat with you then just move on. It's just, aren't you tired of asking that question over and over and over and over again every single day........oh wait, I mean every single MINUTE????

Another thing, when this somebody ask question "what are you doing?" and you answer "watch tv" or "listen to music" or "read a book" or something else, he/she might ask "is it good?" or "what is it about?" its okay for me and certain people, but when it comes to "why did you even watch/listen/read it?" or "tell me the whole story/who sing it?" I probably gonna go...................ARGGGGH "because I want to" or "because I liked it" or "can you just google it? its 21st century for God sake"

It's not that I don't like it, I'm happy when there's someone wants to talk to me and try to get to know me but if he always do the same thing, I'm afraid it will never works out. Beside, I already adore someone else.
I don't want to say to you that you have to "go away from me and please just stop bothering me" but please, we've talked and I think you understand what I mean *Until 2 months ago -_-*


I'm not a bad person, and I don't know what else I should tell you to make you understand what I feel right now. You know that I can't hurt anybody's feeling. And I can't hurt yours. Please please please I'm begging you not to make me feel like a total jackass. Thank you :)

and I'm starting to act like a total heartbreaker+asshole here

Greatest Desire

March 20, 2012

"Last night dream was probably my greatest desire since 9th grade. So sweet yet so sad"

for you, dearest Junior High school mates probably knew what I mean by this. So yeah, basicly I like this boy, he's so cute, sweet and adorable. He's a basketball and guitar player (don't know why I always fall for a guitar player -_-). But I never had the guts to tell him that I like him. You can say that I'm old fashioned who wanted the boy who make the first move, but...........that's me.

It's been like 1.............almost 2 years since I "like" him. Actually we've known each other since elementary school and we began to "get to know" each other since 8th grade. His friend knew, my friends knew, how come he doesn't know? Guess I will, forever and always be waiting for him. Just wait until he dated another girl or tell me the truth whether he likes me or not.

As for now, I'm known as............

"Cause no matter how hard I try, I just forget to forget him. Call me a "stalker" or whatever, but I do stalk him everyday. Eventhough I know he's rarely tweet something about what he has been doing or what he's up to. I just like to see his timeline, makes me less miss him.


*ps: don't judge me. If you're a normal teenage girl, you'll feel the same way*

My Tumblweed

I'm in a hurry but dying to post this, so here I go:

Everybody, meet my boyfriend.........

His name is Riley, he's a singer and bass player, and...................

 He's awesome

 and brave

and adorable

 and handsome

and cute

and cute

and cute

and cute

and..............

did I mention that he's cute?

yeah, HE IS PLTIA (Pretty Little Thing I Adore)

*ps: Isn't he looks like a combination of Justin Bieber and Logan Lerman? 

WOWWW 2 great guys in 1 awesome boy.

NICE