Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
Pray to God, he hears you
And pray to God, he hears you

And where did I go wrong? I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As I read from Damnitstrue timeline:

"Goodbye October. Hello November. Goodbye Heartbreak. Hello Love"

I don't know what to say. Its like everything turned out to be so wrong no matter how hard I try to do it right. Its just so "un-fix-able". I want to know things but at the same time, I know I shouldn't try to find out about that thing because it'll only make things worse. To myself and to others. It's the risk I should take.
But sometimes its better for you to know nothing and feel happy than you know everything and it breaks you piece by piece. But it is so hard to just pretend like you don't care and don't want to know certain things. Its just hard. It can be done, but its hard. Its hard.



You see live is a crazy thing
There'll be good time and there'll be bad times
And eveything in between
And I don't know which way it's gonna go

(n): A lover of rain; Someone who finds joy and peace of mind during rainy days.

Who doesn't love rain? It makes the weather cooler, the sound of it sometimes makes you feel peace and happy (well that's what I feel). Some people even take advantage of rain for them to cry so that nobody would see them in their lowest point. The smell of pavement or garden after rain are so good that you would never had enough of it.

Rain is nice.
But not stormy rain.
Not even a rain from you eyes.....


Badadidum Badadum.....

When I had you to myself, I didn't want you around
Those pretty faces always made you stand out in a crowd
But someone picked you from the bunch, one glance was all it took
Now it's much too late for me to take a second look...

People change right? They change their interests, their looks, their attitude toward others, they change as much as they could to make things better. Sometimes they change it to forget about their past. They often said "I don't care" or "I don't give a s***" about someone or something just to get over it real quick.

Everything's change.

Why can't I?



A Year

"What would I do without you?"
I guess you'll be alright. You'll be fine.

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok?

But I'm really happy to see that you're doing well. I really do hope that you're happy now, forever, and always :)

"I hope one day somebody loves you so much that they see violets in the bags under your eyes, sunset in the downward arch of your lips. That they recognize you as something green, something fresh and still growing, even if sometimes you are growing sideways. That they do not waste their time trying to fix you."


Come Back and Haunt Me

People said "A girl's favorite songs will tell you more about how she feels than her lips ever will" :)

There's this poem and its probably define what happen right now.....

Love Lost
by Lang Leav

There is one who you belong to,
whose love-there is no song for.
And though you know it's wrongful,
there is someone else you long for.

Your heart was once a vessel,
it was filled up to the brim;
until the day he left you,
now everything sings of him.

Of the two who come to love you,
to one your heart, you gave.
He lives in stars above you-
in the love who come and stayed.


Oh Sweet Lorraine

A 96-year-old Illinois man wrote a song about his wife of 75 years and when he sent the heart-wrenching ode into a singer-songwriter contest, they decided to produce it for him. When Fred Stobaugh talks about his wife Lorraine now, it's hard for him to hold back tears after the life they led together he says was 'like a dream.' After she died, he was sitting alone in the Peoria home they once shared and for the first time in his life he decided to write a song. It just fit her,'

This video is like the sweetest thing by far. I literally got teary eyes watching it. So beautiful :')



(n): Fear of Change.

Metathesiophobia is the fear of changes that is usually accompanied by uncontrollable anxiety. Symptomps include breathlessness, excessive sweating, nausea, dry mouth, feeling sick, shaking, heart palpitations, inability to speak or think clearly, a fear of dying, becoming mad or losing control, a sensation of detachment from reality or a full blown anxiety attack.

This fear severely reduces your will to continue in life, sometimes you may feel like you have no control in life and may want to end it. You constantly look back on the past and wish it would come back, but you know it won't, you are willing to do anything to go back, you fill yourself up with false hope and kose faith in life.

Bottom line, you don't want to go out from your comfort zone. You don't want any change in it.