Gloomy Gloomy Wednesday Night

Currently listening to these songs by:

James Morrison

Broken Strings:

You can't play our broken strings

You can't feel anything

That your heart don't want to feel

I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse

How can I give anymore

When I love you a little less than before?

*truth? I never love you a little less than before. Maybe there are times where I'm (let's just say) a little bit forget you for a moment. But you never really away from my mind. From my heart*

Christina Perri

A Thousand Years:

I have died everyday

Waiting for you

Darlin' don't be afraid

I have loved you for a thousand years

I'll love you for a thousand more

*well, since I've (secretly) loved you for about 2 years, 998 years to go*

Katy Perry

The One That Got Away:

And in another life, I would be your girl

we keep all our promises, be us against the world

And in another life, I would make you stay

So I don't have to say you were the one that got away

The one that got away

*(perhaps) I'll never be your girl. I'll never get the chance to make you my boy and make you stay. So basicly, you're already got away before you even started get in my life*

The gloomy wednesday night is officially begin.........

Thank God tonight isn't Saturday night, otherwise it would be very pathetic for me (you know why)

22nd December, 2011

2 nights ago was literally the............well you can say "the best girls night out ever" OR "the best meeting another old friend ever." It happens at the same time

Let me tell you the story:
So, one of my dearest friend, T asked me to meet her at one of the mall in Jakarta. After school, i went home, change my clothes and then flew to meet her. Soooo excited because we haven't met for like months. We didn't have any clue what to do cause we didn't make a "what-to-do" list. So we just walked around without any purpose.

That's sounds like usual right? just walking around with one of your good friend? But you have to know whats happen during it.

We talked about wanted to meet our other friend, A. He's.......well let's just say my "crush", or used to (perhaps) and also our good friend. Like 2 minutes after talking about meeting A, he walked and smiled right to us. Typical teenage girl when she meets her crush, they always like "OMFG WHAT SHOULD I DO, IS MY HAIR OKAY? DO I LOOK GOOD? WHAT SHOULD I SAY TO HIM? OMG THIS IS SOOOOO NOT HAPPENING RIGTH NOW." He says 'Hi' and we talked like only 5 minutes (or less) because he wanted to go somewhere else and I didn't know what to say. Then he walked away. He ended our flash-meeting with a smile. Cute little smile that would make you feel like you're and ice cream under the sun.
T and I were just laugh and talk about it whole time. Both of us didn't believe it. One moment we're just talking about him and then we met him. God knows how to pleased us. Thanks you soooooo much, I wouldn't forget about what happen that night.

But its sucks, I've tried so hard to "forget" him but then we...........AAAAAAAAA
Like Allstar Weekend say:
LET'S BLAME IT ON SEPTEMBER, 'CAUSE IT HURTS TO REMEMBER....................

But for me its:
LET'S BLAME IT ON DECEMBER.....................
'cause you know, it happens on December not on September du'uh

You're just too adorable

Okay, so I do my daily activity which is watch bunch of music or stupid videos on youtube and i found this:

Lovely Owl

YOU REALLY NEED TO SEE THIS VIDEO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

aren't the cute or what? To  MrNuraT who post this youtube, I salute you. They are "ADORABLE." I just want to squeeze them now if i can, OMG. To be honest, i've never seen such cute animal like this before. 100% never-ever-EVER touch an owl before.

Invisible

You totally need to hear this song like ASAP.

Invisible - Skylar Grey

This song is almost the same like my own life-story. well except in this song she wants to be thin, dyed her hair and cut her own skin (YUCKKKK). But i'm already thin, I don't want to dye my hair and totally not interested in "cutting off my skin". That's just............EWHHHHH.
But the point of the song is almost the same. Its what I feel right now.

These lyrics gets my attention since the first time I hear it

I believe most of you felt this way before. I did too, especially since I become a teenage girl. It sucks, I know. Sometimes you just want to be someone else or you'll do anything to make yourself perfect. But as i read a quuote on twitter "if you want a perfect girlfriend, go buy yourself a barbie." That's prove that there's no such thing as a "perfect" person in this world. What makes us perfect is our imperfection. We just have to believe in ourself that we're perfect. Don't try so hard to make you look good. We have to thankful to God. His creation is perfect, especially human.

Ever feel it before?

I ask this question to my girlfriends and most of them felt like this before. so what i ask them is:

"Do you ever feel like you really like this boy since day 1 you meet him but you can never tell if he likes you too or not. you wanted to say it like a billion times but you're too afraid it might ruin your friendship but this feeling hautns you every second, every minute, every hour. and you always think about it everytime you want to go to sleep and when you wake up, and not once or two times you cry in the middle of the night thinking about it. and on top of that, you haven't seen him lately because you're like thousand miles away from him. and now you rarely talk to him via email/twitter/anything else, you don't know what happen to him lately or did he ever think to talk to you again or is there any girl in his life now"
have you ever feel like that?

like SERIOUSLY i want to stop thinking about it, erase it if i have to but i can't. Guess this is what they say "teenage problem". hate being a teenager right now. don't you?

*p.s: to you out there who might never understand what i feel right now, just want to say this. i know its selfish  and i'm not suppose to say (or even think about) it but.............

Taylor swift - Enchanted

Does story like this can happen in real life?

Do you have that 1 best guy friend who knew you since you're still 3/5 years old and you always tell him story about your crush and you never realize how much he's in pain inside everytime you tell that to him over and over again until one day when you're a teenager (lets say.....15 years old), and he confess to you that he likes you since the first time you meet each other and both of you end up together like those kids on the movie? How does it feel? Cause to be honest I would like to feel something like that.
Since I was a kid, I've never had 1 best guy friend in my life. All I had was 1 best girl friend.
I don't remember if I had one in kindergarten, what I do remember was I never had it in elementary school. Well maybe I do have one but I never tell him story about my crush, because you know I'm still a kid, still blind about "love" thingy (and still do until this very moment). In junior high..............I had one but then that's it, I'm senior high now end we rarely meet/chat each other again. Beside he has a girlfriend. In senior high? Well let's say I'm still working on it. I have 1 close (guy) friend. But I'm not sure if we're going to end up like that. I can't imagine it and WON'T imagine it. Too damn scary I guess.
Let's face it, I'm only gonna have best girlfriend in my life. And right now, we're almot lostcontact too. How sad huh :(.

Advice to all girl out there (whether you want to follow a 15 year old girl advice/not, its up to you):

Choose one best guy friend that you really trust (if you can get a cute, handsome, smart, cool one that even better) and who knows? Maybe you could be like the girl whom I talked before. Then you can tell your story to your children and your children will tell it to your grandchildren and to your grandgrandchildren and so on.

Its just you're in a movie where you be the main character

OMG, FINALLY!!!!!!!

GREETINGS!!!!!!!!! FEWH. its all over.

no time for chit chat, i'm just gonna tell you the point.

okay, what did you guys missed lately............
1. my birthday. Yaaaay happy birthday Deva, happy birthday Deva yayaya *blabla* we wish you all the best.

2. Concerts. Yeah, looks like all of the singer made some agreement to have a concert in Indonesia in the same year, like Bruno Mars, Justin Bieber, McFly, and Maroon 5

3. I've finished my National exam days ago and now i'm just gonna pray and hoping that i get awesome score on every subject.

4. Prince William and Kate Middleton's wedding. congratulation -_-

since then, tumblr filled with this kind of picture.............

absolutely hilarious, with capital 'H'. Hear this harry, lots and lots of women in this world want to marry you so bad-_-

OH!! and another thing. Take a look...........

aren't they cute or what? :3

well i guess that's some of the "big events" that you've missed lately. Chat with you soon.

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Last post *perhaps* before national exam and any other exams. wish me luck.

done.bye.nite.sleep tight.muach(?)
*ps: Guess where i found it? Nah, i made it just for ya