1.11.13

Movember


Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
Pray to God, he hears you
And pray to God, he hears you

And where did I go wrong? I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As I read from Damnitstrue timeline:

"Goodbye October. Hello November. Goodbye Heartbreak. Hello Love"

I don't know what to say. Its like everything turned out to be so wrong no matter how hard I try to do it right. Its just so "un-fix-able". I want to know things but at the same time, I know I shouldn't try to find out about that thing because it'll only make things worse. To myself and to others. It's the risk I should take.
But sometimes its better for you to know nothing and feel happy than you know everything and it breaks you piece by piece. But it is so hard to just pretend like you don't care and don't want to know certain things. Its just hard. It can be done, but its hard. Its hard.