17.03.2012

The main event happened days ago but today, I saw these pictures again. Pictures that me and my Junior High friends took when we celebrate Tiva's birthday party. It's really a surprise party arranged by Yori and Tiva's parents and aunt. If Yori didn't invited us, we probably wouldn't meet each other. *except for Tata, 'cause we meet like every saturday*.

We are totally "un-prepared" because we just talked about it through Blackberry Messenger group.

I want to tell you the whole thing, but looks like forever to read it and showing it by pictures seems harmless and easier.

Start from our meeting point

Then Suprise her. Lighted up the candle from stove *none of us brought lighter*. 

And made her blow the candle twice because of technical problem

Pranked her. See her still holding the cake? it's 100% our fault. we should've taken 

the cake before she got pranked. and FYI, we didn't eat it eventually

Played outside and Goofed around

Got a little scared when Tiva's dog came to us. Well very much frightened, 

some of us even leave their phone on the ground and save themself

Went to the mall and sat there until stores closed and people wrapped everything up.Nice way to tell us to go home or go somewhere else

1 thing that I would never forget is...........we need about 10 minutes just to arrange place to sit on our way to mall, Kind of embarrasing actually. But when you do it with your friends, it become less embarrasing. Thanks again to all of you.

Got Other Questions?

Seriously, what happen with people these days? when they want to get to know each other, one of them text to another and ask the same questions everyday "hi, what are you doing?" "have you your breakfast/lunch/dinner?" "what are you going to do today?" "what did you do yesterday?" "already do your homeworks?" and then, about 5-10 minutes later he/she repeat the first question "so now, what are you doing?".

Ugh, can you ask another thing? OR if that person looks like he/she didn't want to chat with you then just move on. It's just, aren't you tired of asking that question over and over and over and over again every single day........oh wait, I mean every single MINUTE????

Another thing, when this somebody ask question "what are you doing?" and you answer "watch tv" or "listen to music" or "read a book" or something else, he/she might ask "is it good?" or "what is it about?" its okay for me and certain people, but when it comes to "why did you even watch/listen/read it?" or "tell me the whole story/who sing it?" I probably gonna go...................ARGGGGH "because I want to" or "because I liked it" or "can you just google it? its 21st century for God sake"

It's not that I don't like it, I'm happy when there's someone wants to talk to me and try to get to know me but if he always do the same thing, I'm afraid it will never works out. Beside, I already adore someone else.
I don't want to say to you that you have to "go away from me and please just stop bothering me" but please, we've talked and I think you understand what I mean *Until 2 months ago -_-*


I'm not a bad person, and I don't know what else I should tell you to make you understand what I feel right now. You know that I can't hurt anybody's feeling. And I can't hurt yours. Please please please I'm begging you not to make me feel like a total jackass. Thank you :)

and I'm starting to act like a total heartbreaker+asshole here

Greatest Desire

March 20, 2012

"Last night dream was probably my greatest desire since 9th grade. So sweet yet so sad"

for you, dearest Junior High school mates probably knew what I mean by this. So yeah, basicly I like this boy, he's so cute, sweet and adorable. He's a basketball and guitar player (don't know why I always fall for a guitar player -_-). But I never had the guts to tell him that I like him. You can say that I'm old fashioned who wanted the boy who make the first move, but...........that's me.

It's been like 1.............almost 2 years since I "like" him. Actually we've known each other since elementary school and we began to "get to know" each other since 8th grade. His friend knew, my friends knew, how come he doesn't know? Guess I will, forever and always be waiting for him. Just wait until he dated another girl or tell me the truth whether he likes me or not.

As for now, I'm known as............

"Cause no matter how hard I try, I just forget to forget him. Call me a "stalker" or whatever, but I do stalk him everyday. Eventhough I know he's rarely tweet something about what he has been doing or what he's up to. I just like to see his timeline, makes me less miss him.


*ps: don't judge me. If you're a normal teenage girl, you'll feel the same way*

My Tumblweed

I'm in a hurry but dying to post this, so here I go:

Everybody, meet my boyfriend.........

His name is Riley, he's a singer and bass player, and...................

 He's awesome

 and brave

and adorable

 and handsome

and cute

and cute

and cute

and cute

and..............

did I mention that he's cute?

yeah, HE IS PLTIA (Pretty Little Thing I Adore)

*ps: Isn't he looks like a combination of Justin Bieber and Logan Lerman? 

WOWWW 2 great guys in 1 awesome boy.

NICE

Truth Behind Every Smile

Let me ask you a question. "What will you do and how do you feel when someone you think very nice and very close to you suddenly talk bad things about you behind your back? Will you just pretend that you don't know? Will you ask him/her the reason(s)? Will you do the same thing to them? Will you feel you're not worth to live anymore? Will you turn into an whole new different person and slowly go away from them? Or what?

Well for me, I'm gonna try to make distance with them. Not to far, but just small distance and make sure that they don't realize it. Just act cool infront of them and try not to do the same thing 'cause its a really awful thing to do, and I'm trying to be a good person eventhough I often made a lot of mistakes. I also don't want to play fire with fire, 'cause I might get burned. Let them laugh and talk anything about me, but just FYI karma does exist and your life just like a ferris wheel, once it goes up always comes down.

Expressions that really describe them is..............coin. Coin has 2 sides, just like them. Not 2 sides but two-faced. Nice, friendly, caring and loving person infront of you, but when you turn around.............they aren't the same person anymore. Every single day, there's always at least one person who become a "coin" and I have to face another day with them whole day long. It's hard, I'm tired of their attitude. They're not always respect others but dying to get respect from other. Isn't that kind of selfish?

Rough time in High School. Rough time being a teenager. Or is it just me who haven't truly understand the "grown-up" world or the "dog-eat-dog" world. Maybe I'm not ready to grow up way too soon. Maybe I need more time to enjoy my childhood. Maybe what my dad said was right. I'm not a teenanger or an adult. I forever and always will be his little girl who running around, laugh, do anything I want and didn't even care about everything around me, cry and mad just because someone broke my toys or lost my crayon or even didn't get the new collection of Barbie doll.

Life seems easier back then. Then why kids want to grow up so fast? Why do they want to get involve or feel  my kind of situation? I should build a time machine and warned myself back in 2000 about what will I feel in the future

Your eyes shines brighter

It's been..........months since the last time I saw you. You don't know the pain I carry on everyday, every hour, every minute. So many things I want to say to you but when I get a chance, everything went black. I can't even remember what I want to say. But when that chance is over, everything goes back to normal.

29.01.2102

Supposed I talk and discuss lot of things with you, but as always.........I can't remember a thing. But that short, unimportant, going on loopty loop conversation made me sing.........

If only I have the guts to tell him this. And if only he tell me this one too. World would be a better place

Some People Change, Few Don't

Some of my friends are different from what they used to. Not physically, but more about their personality. In a good way of course. Some of them turn into "easy-to-get-friends" person or easy to hang out every friday or saturday night. Some of them become captain or leader of their school clubs. Some are more talkative than before. Some...........well remains the same actually, still like to study and consider thick textbooks from their school library (or from bookstore) are just light reading. Some become more famous on cyber world, twitter to be exact.

As for me, I don't change that much. I'm still the old me who prever reading traveling or fiction novel than physics textbook; who loves to chill on couch and watch tv all day than walking around the neighborhood; who enjoy writing blog and call it my own diary (I can't keep a diary in my room, I prever typing than writing with my own hand. Also, my mom would easily find it and read it. Probably she will turn from gossip tabloid to my diary book. It's just........horrible); who still take things easy, especially when it comes to school stuff (or any other stuff, it's just too many); who still hardly speak infront of people (come on, even speaking infront of 8 students and 1 teacher in my EF class is so damn hard, I only speak if its necesarry); who still sing and act like a star in my room or bathroom (creepy me); who still secretly adore the same boy since 8th grade, "do stalk his twitter timeline everyday" is one of my motto (do we even allowed to have more than one motto?); who still don't know what to do and what I want to be when i'm older (let's say........5 to 10 years from now).

See, I'm still the same me. Haven't change a bit. Well except with my hair, height, and weight. Others is still 60% same.

I Love...................New Year

cc:  PicturesandQuotes

*with a little twist*

By the way.............

Today is the first day of 2012. The first day to start everything all over again. It's like the second chance to make everything better again. Already make a wish-list or a to-do-list for this year?. This is so far my list and wish:

To be better

Study harder

To live more healthy

To be more happy

Stop complaining, start enjoying life

More praying, less playing

To take things seriously (although it's okay to joke around, just little bit)

Family and friends are still around

World peace

Those issues about "World Ends" aren't true

Basicly, enjoy your life in 2012 :)